For writers. On towards THE END.

F. Scott Fitzgerald said, “All good writing is swimming under water and holding your breath.

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I might add, “. . . and passing out in the process.”

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Not only is the way of a novel murky and ungrasp-able.

The process quite often brings me to the end of myself.

Take, for example, my current work-in-progress (WIP).

I’m following all the rules, and breaking them.

My protagonist is not me, but at the same time, she is me.

For I do not write an autobiography.

But I cannot write what I do not know.

As I plunge my characters deeper and deeper into conflicts and places they do fear most, my subconscious sojourns with them.

When these imagined illusions of my delusions break wide open, parts of me break open, too.

And so, I post this lament.

Of the parts of me which are inky and raw.

Of the parts of me which scream at the small remnants of the sane part of my mind, “Put the pen down! Before someone–namely yourself–gets hurt!”

For the other writers out there who know.

Exactly.

What.

I.

Mean.

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BUT

even as I lament,

long-strictured parts of me

praise.

As my pen frees

protagonists and antagonists,

my grayed out, stagnant heart

breathes

Technicolor again.

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Even as my pen

presses down, my hands

raise up.

In lament.

In praise.

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on

towards

THE END

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3 thoughts on “For writers. On towards THE END.

  1. Ah… I do know exactly what you mean… which is why I have to put my WIP aside for weeks at a time. Too much truth in my fiction šŸ™‚ But we must press on to get to the good stuff on the other side of the muck.

  2. Often my pencil scribbles like a kindergarten child would write not knowing how. Then I try to use my pencil in a different position, and that helps and I see sense and light. Hopefully someone will be blessed when I complete this scribble of words that tell a story.

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